Abe cooked simple lunch..

Saturday we did a simple lunch..

It was so much fun..

Walking to Tesco and preparing the food..
It was simple pan-grilled chicken with mushroom cream sauce..

Salad with homemade thousand island sauce..

Sounds crazy and difficult? hehehehe...neh it was simple

Someone's prescence perhaps is the best thing..hahaha

Cutting...macam yes saja (favourate quote)

abe

Abe wishes you merry christmas!

Is CHRISTMAS!
the 3rd year christmas in penang..
i still miss christmas at home..i wonder if there is still christmas tree at hom without 3 of us at home.. sorry mom & dad..but i know both of u sureenjoy the time also..
Back home..christmas normally is wet..dark..gloomy..really into the mood..

Christmas this year...quite busy..serving and enjoying the true meaning of christmas..
It is the gift from god to us...his only son..
gift of joy..salvation and eternal life..
Have u received it..?

abe
p/s pics will be posted later!

Abe's feeling..

Picture paints a thousand words..

Could this happen to you..?

It happens to me..

No description..

No words..

No utterance..

But im fine..

abe

Abe is super happy and have fears too..

Entering the world of uncertainty is surely something frightful and uncomfortable..
Well...to be there and experiencing means we are learning and become more mature..
Few events happened these few days...
Im glad it happened..
Im not sure why and how it happened..
I pray it is from God..
But..everything is so uncertain..
But i have faith in God..my tower of strength..
Ill jz walk the path...
Be patient with me..im noob

abe

Abe @ ASEAN Univeristy Games Opening

This should be an old post..

Ill write it out anyway..

Team fencing team was at KL for the opening ceremony of the ASEAN university games

thoughts:-

1) Our University really made a bad arrangement for us to go for the opening ceremony

2) We are there for 4 days jz to actually to attend tat opening..kind of waste of time and money

3) Schedules are all not confirmed and full of FREE TIMES!

4) Accomodation in UKM is ok..but where is the food? where do u aspect us to eat where canteens are closed?

therefore i think we can do better management on that.. but we are dealing with people from H*PP.. how better do we aspect? something must be done i think..

On the opening....for me..personally im always proud of the preparations done..

feedbacks from few teammates of course performances worth is only the fireworks

They said the organizers didnt really protray the true essence of MULTICULTURAL Malaysia.

Perhaps there is some truth in it...aint 'other' cultures like chinese,indian, iban, kadazan etc etc part of the big culture in malaysia?

Why such bias? I am always proud to say im a Malaysian. But are they ready to proudly accept us as MALAYSIANS? it always saddens me... nvm...im always an optimist!

Most memorable thing through out of this trip? Bu nen suo de mi mi (is a secret!)

im really really happy and felt...'weird' hehehehe..long time havent got this feeling...
is it coming back?

abe

Abe blogging from UKM

What a day!

Woke and prepare myself to go out.. clean the house...

then straight to the post office..then BPLK...then to Lab

At the lab...guess wat...lambasted by Prof...actually he is just giving stern directions..

In regards of our final year project...

Then took USM bus to KL for a seminar sukan..

Supposedly this seminar is held in conjunction with ASEAN University Games

But actual it is held so that more students are 'cheated' to go for the opening ceremony...
Such cheap tactics..aihzzz (@.@)

But i always have a open mind... is good also to take some pictures of the event

Will blog it out..stay tuned

The bus took like 6 hours to reach UKM..dreaded journey..

But im kinda got used to the bus travelling... i havent stop travelling since the last 2 weeks..

here is UKM's dorm. Not bad but...compared to USM...i still love USM

abe

Abe sailing with mini Titanic (MV Fajar Samudera)

Right after final exam, one week of intensive fencing trainig..then 4 days competition in KL. Went back for a day in Penang then head to Lumut for sailing..
i think im crazy!

Here it goes:-

This posting will not tell u what i do day to day...ill just summarize it..

I really really really had fun..
I met incredible young peoples there...
I am inspired by them..

I felt hope is still there for us..

One ironic thing is that im talking about the environment. Of course one of the presentation will be on White Coffin. You know what? On board the ship, they only serve food on polystyrene. First reaction... OMG!!!!! How am i gonna speak on that topic when the organizers itself couldnt make sure the food is serve on proper reusable plates?

I heard this is the directive from the Navy cause last year they have water shortage due to excessive washings...ok...nevermind.. they are still learning..

After my talk...i felt changes will come...im positive.. responds was good..

Everyone rush to search for reusable cloth bags to ditch plastic bags,
some even went to search for food container when we anchored at Langkawi.

As for me.. hei hei...TADAAA... luckily i got my Go-Flex container with me and the tupperware water tumbler...i used none of the polystyrene container...well if i had used them...will u think my talk will be successful? perhaps the effect is even better when i brought it cause i really WALK THE TALK! cheh...puji diri pulak (self-praising)

Few more things i need to highlight here is the people i met... u ppl rock! seriously.
i did not change u all...in fact meeting u all really changed me.. (JBs, Ezrie, participants)
You all make my trip memorable..it was one of the most precious memories in my life i believe.

2 are missing.. si Adam dan Qusyairi

especially to mention our tag "squishy squishy" (@.@)

so now... let the pics speak my memories!

View in the morning from my room!

check out more photos in my facebook!

Abe frustrated with technologies!

Now i realize how much we depend on technologies..

This dependency really make our works much easier and fast..

All right, i must admit, i really need my computer and a decent reliable internet connectivity..

Sometimes when im out of touch with internet, i felt really lost and 'disconnected'

Yesterday and today, my IPAQ screwed up..

First: it automatically, without my conscent, without my command, reformatted itself..

WHAT? HOW CAN THIS BE?

implications: I lost all my contact numbers, I lost all my SMSes, I lost all my diary of appointments, All my presettings gone..

2nd: Just now, i do not know wht i have done, the sim card locked itself.. NO PHONE to use tonight i guess...

Implication:- NO call and SMS for the time being, have to trouble someone to bring me to the M*XiS Centre to get it fix, time for Japanese revision gone..(jz pretend that i do a lot of revision)

Nonetheless, I think i still need these technologies so much. As my mentor said, we are the technology citizen, the olden generations are the digital immigrants. Quite true.

Somehow are we controlling them or our life are being controlled?

I wonder..

abe

Abe got a pet!

Technology sometimes makes me think a lot of things..
We used to have pets...i mean real pets where u can touch and play with it physically..
Now we no longer need to worry about buying food, cleaning up poops and be frustraed if it makes ur place dirty or messy.
Now what the world have is virtual pets. Things that only exists in the box of your monitor.
It doesnt cost that much..(jz need to pay for electric and internet)


Interjection:-

This reminds me of my conversation with a UPM friend. It seems they can only only in their dormitory for 40 hours per week.. WHAT?
walauwei! (an expression) What sort of university is that? restricting the flow of information? OBSELETE! PRIMITIVE! I felt sorry for UPM.. i dont mean to condemn. Just my own selfish thoughts. Dont need to buy in for that..

I myself now have a pet...a virtual wan..somehow it is interesting..
Though some still prefer physical pets.
Reflecting, sometime i felt disgusted where pets get better treatment then people.
I mean, some pets eat foods that are far more expensive and nutritious than people.
Hey...i am saying, people in some part of the world are fighting for food..

WHAT HAS BECOME OF OUR EARTH?

Nevertheless, this is still their choice. If you are one of them, i apologize.
Social justice is something always concerns me. Be thankful, share your love.

Well here is my pet..

Is a she.. Her name is Ah Bee...she is so cute and with attitude...Love it!
She is only available in Facebook...

Abe

Who Am I..

This is gonna 'shoo' a lot of my blog readers...i know but still ill post it..
Will be back with more about my experience soon. Once i get over with my emo'ness'

Who am I to seek..
So undeservingly to receive..
Who am I to receive..
So deseperately want it..
Who am I to want it..
So hoping to taste it..
Who am I to taste it..
So far away from you..
Who am I to expect from you..
So insignificant to be someone..
Who am I to be someone..
So unworthy am I..
Remain the same..
Remain to be still..
Looking from afar..
Looking for a rainbow..
Sign of greatness..
Hoping nothing..

abe

Tree..

After coming back from Mc Donalds....back with popiah tat i made..

this is a story of a tree:-

A Tree.

One of the most wonderful creation of God.
It is a shelter from rain.

It is a shade from the scorching sun.

It is a place to seek peace.

It is a place sit down and chill.

It is a place where you can chat.

It does not answer nor complains.

It listens attentively.

Grieve as you grieve.

Smile as you smile.

Cry as you cry.

Giving safe refuge when storms hit.

Through seasons, unchanged.

Leaves whitter, grows again ever lush.

It extends it's branches and leaves wide. The shades grow bigger.

Roots drive down the earth, hanging on to the ground where nutrient is absorbed.
When seasons comes, it bears fruit.

Labour for time producing fruits.

Fruits fell, hoping giving nourishment to one.

Once bitten, turns away.

Leaving.. neglected...

Still ever unchanging, roots further stregthens it.

Will it fruit again, definitely every season, untiring.

Standing alone for few more seasons.

With birds, insects and grass only partners.

Ground as solid foundation.

Awaiting one day, the day, that day.

Flowers blooming whitters not.

Abe

PlasticForum@USM.. feelings..

Finally the much thought and prepared PlasticForum@USM is finally in place.
Big crowd? hmmmm perhaps. Good response.. Certainly I heard a lot from the Plastic Manufacture Association, 'defending' their industry i suppose. No offend at all. Everyone has an equal space to voice.

As for me, well.. i didn't throw the question i had in mind at first.. because the direction of the talks seems going to the other side. One thing learn.. why do we always put responsibility to other people? Can't we just take up the initiative to be responsible? Manufacturer put it to the government, the government blame the rakyat (people), the rakyat say is the industry should stop producing, the industry say they campaigned, but rakyat are ignorant, round and round in orbits..
BREAK THE CHAIN OF CYCLE!

Overall, congratulations to BPLK and Dr Lee for a great event. Hope it enlightens those who attended. By the way, shopped at Tesco, surpringsingly, they switched back to degradeble plastic bags.. hmmmm perhaps USM's invitation rings a bell? maybe...perhaps...

(wait for the pictures to be uploaded, stay tuned)

--end of working blog---
--start personal blog--

Fake it? Hide it? or Forget about it? Difficult to answer eh... well perhaps none of it is the answer, or maybe combination of all these is the answer.
Sometimes dealing with your own feelings makes u go a bit cuckoo..
But i know I'm good sometimes in these 3 areas. At the end, bear it on my own..Im sure i can do it another time.. i have been through this. Is nothing different. Painful? perhaps. Dissapointment? certainly. Can u do something about it? nothing.
All I can say to other is...I'M OK.........I'LL BE OK...i know who is my tower of strength..

abe

Learning..

Failure certainly a good way of learning. Failure won't fail to teach you..
the experience you get is invaluable.
You will fail to learn if you dont reflect on your failures..
Reflecting requires you to think of failures and experience from different perspectives..
taking account of views from 360 degrees..
This will make u a better man.. it will if u try it..

some thoughts of mine now:-
Sometimes i think is bad...but still i remain the same. I always thought that my own feeling is not important. Never take consideration on how i feel on doing something. is it good? is it bad? im really not sure. Perhaps the worst thing is tat i will be ended up hurting myself and struggling to get back on my feet.

Well.. as long as other people are happy.. i think it is worth..perhaps...im not sure..
for me? im just no one ...not important..not significant..i hope so..

abe

Orbit..round and round..

怎麼隱藏 我的悲傷
zen me yin cang wo de bei shang
How to hide my sadness

失去妳的地方
shi qu ni de di fang
The place where I lost you

妳的髮香 散的匆忙
ni de fa xiang san de cong mang
The fragrance of your hair scatters hastily

我已經跟不上
wo yi jing gen bu shang
I already cannot catch up

閉上眼睛 還能看見
bi shang yan jing hai neng kan jian
With my eys closed, I can still see

妳離去的痕跡
ni li qu de hen ji
The traces of your departure

在月光下一直找尋
zai yue guang xia yi zhi zhao xun
I keep searching under the moonlight

那想念的身影
na xiang nian de shen ying
For that silhouette that I’m thinking of*

如果說分手 是苦痛的起點
ru guo shuo fen shou shi ku tong de qi dian
If breaking up can be said to be the starting point of pain

那在終點之前 我願意再愛一遍
na zai zhong dian zhi qian wo yuan yi zai ai yi bian
Then before the final destination point, I’m willing to love once again

想要對妳說的 不敢說的愛
xiang yao dui ni shuo de bu gan shuo de ai
I want to tell you, the love that I dare not express

會不會有人 可以明白 轨迹
hui bu hui you ren ke yi ming bai
Will anyone be able to understand

我會發著呆 然後忘記妳
wo hui fa zhe dai ran hou wang ji ni
I will be staring off into space, then I will forget you

接著緊緊閉上眼
jie zhe jin jin bi shang yan
And then tightly close my eyes

想著那一天 會有人代替
xiang zhe na yi tian hui you ren dai ti
Thinking about that day, when there will be someone who’ll take your place

讓我不再想念妳
rang wo bu zai xiang nian ni
So that I will not think about you anymore

我會發著呆 然後微微笑
wo hui fa zhe dai ran hou wei wei xiao
I will be staring off into space, then I will break into a smile

接著緊緊閉上眼
jie zhe jin jin bi shang yan
And then tightly close my eyes

又想了一遍 妳溫柔的臉
you xiang le yi bian ni wen rou de lian
Thinking once again, your tender face

在我忘記之前
zai wo wang ji zhi qian
Before I forget

心裡的眼淚 模糊了視線
xin li de yan lei mo hu le shi xian
The tears in my heart, have blurred my vision

妳已快看不見
ni yi kuai kan bu jian
You almost can’t see it anymore

Trying to upload this song...dunno can or not...anyway..this is wat i feel.. reflects nicely..

abe

The lyric goes:-

My Life Yi Zhi Zai Deng Dai
Kong Dang De Kou Dai
Xiang Zai Li Mian Fang Yi Fen Ai
Why Zong Shi Bei Da Bai
Zhen De Hao Wu Nai
Qi Shi Wo Shi Shi Zai Zai
Bu Guan Shuai Bu Shuai
Chorus:
Xiang Yao Zhao Hui Lai
Zi Ji De Jie Pai
Suo Yi Zhe Yi Ci
Wo Yao Yong Gan Da Sheng Shuo Chu Lai
Qi Dai, Qi Dai Ni Fa Xian Wo De Ai
Wu Suo Bu, Zai Wo Zi Ran Er Ran De Guan Huai
Ni De Cun Zai
Xin Ling Gan Ying De Fang Xiang
Wo Yi Yan Jiu Kan Chu Lai
Shi Yin Wei Ai
Wo Cai Ni Zao Yi Fa Xian Wo De Ai
Rao Ji Ge Wan Yue Kao Jin Yue Ming Bai
Bu Yao Zou Kai
Xing Fu De Kai Shi Jiu Shi Fang Shou Qu Ai
Chorus (1X)

Lyrics:-

Why do birds suddenly appear
Every time you are near?
Just like me, they long to be
Close to you.
Why do stars fall down from the sky
Every time you walk by?
Just like me, they long to be
Close to you.
On the day that you were born
The angels got together
And decided to create a dream come true
So they sprinkled moon dust in your hair of gold
And starlight in your eyes of blue.
That is why all the girls in town
Follow you all around.
Just like me, they long to be
Close to you.
On the day that you were born
The angels got together
And decided to create a dream come true
So they sprinkled moon dust in your hair of gold
And starlight in your eyes of blue.
That is why all the girls in town
Follow you all around.
Just like me, they long to be
Close to you.
Just like me (Just like me)
They long to be
Close to you.
Wahhhhhhhhhhh, close to you.
Wahhhhhhhhhhh, close to you.
Hahhhhhhhhhhh, close to you.
Lahhhhhhhhhhh, close to you.

Songs that are running in my mind for the whole time...ahh..another one is Yesterday Once More by Carpenters...upload next time ya...
Am feeling a bit weird today.. nonetheless...ill be all right.. thanks guys..i know who i can trust! give me time to learn..is not easy i know...i hurts sometimes... but ill never give up learning. When i fall.. i rise up even higher..Happiness and joy will eventually come when His will is abided

abe

Morning fencing?

7.15 am..
It was quite sometime since i woke up tat early. For today, because of the fencing girls.. i did it..
But im glad.. beautiful morning..sun rise view from u heights...spectacular...reminds me Him tat made all these wonderful.

I was quite surprised at the rate of their progression.

Meifong starting to strategize games,
Mary more comfortable on the piste,
HowYi with much quicker blade work,
Ah Bee much confident in attacking.

Means my hardwork and effort was not in the drain. happy? Of course.. i just afraid one day i wouldn't able to catch up.h Hehehe.

Today, i was reminded again. A very important verse... Love is patient Love is kind...so wonderful verse from 1 Chorinthian 13. It is difficult...this is wat i need to learn! Im learning!



View from the place im blogging now..beautiful..a reminder...

abe

Long Day!

People who came

Universal signature for 'no point'

Lack of sleep.. slept 3.00 am something..
my goodness..is now 2.30am...

i'm writing in my subconscious mind...forgive me.

What hectic day..
I have to do a sketch. Is the japanses sketch.
I dont think i did enough preparation. Am just started reading and memorizing the scripts at 2.00 in the morning. Am glad that mary and 'ah bee er' accompanied me through MSN IM.

Then i rushed to my professors' inaugral lecture. With my shirts, slacks and tie. It was OK and nothing special because i have attended some of the similar lectures.

Go ahead to my facebook to look at how crazy is the picture..i promise u.

The most exciting is my fencing friends visited the student centre and haved fun. i meant a lot of fun here. They avoided my lecturer and arrived early. Hehehe.. perhaps my lecture somehow works a bit.

(no longer can bear, sleep..)

(continue...8.20am)

We had our dinner 1st that night. As requested, sweet sour portk, then we have vietnamese squid stuffed with pork (if u notice, pork again), tapioca leave with minced pork(again), an indian style peas, then soup.

Games played:-

Dance Dance Revolution. Indeed there are some people got addicted to tat PS2 machine notebly:- Ah Bee 'er' and MeiFong. All they dance is....Y....M...C...A..(without hand movement cause too bz wit the feet!)

Life Game..i kinda forgot the rules..so became very lame.. {(=.=)} sorry!

then the game i like..TWISTER!

Thank you all for a wonderful day. though im super super tired. U'll made my day.
Special credit to matthew for the good food. Kailin too...she can be a good mum!

Pronounciation N Korean night

Written yesterday:-

I had test on pronounciation today.
Haven't done a lot of reading. No wait, it is not a test. Is the Final Exam!




I have the whole morning till afternoon to make a quick review of all the chapters.
This course didn't worry me that much though. But this is what i look like:-

Eating the dictionary, LOL

I love pronounciation actually. I always felt that it is important to speak correctly. Not to have accents nor slangs. Just correct and clear words uttered out.

I showed ah bee all the alien words. Phonetic Alphabets. Is kinda cool! Kinda like language from mars. hehehehe. I encourage u ppl to take up the challenge. Is fun!


At night, we had Korean food. It was marvelous.

Well done Matthew! Glorious Food!


I felt that actually food is very important. Not just to fill oneself up. There is a lot to ponder just by eating food.



Well, food can bring people together from different background. It also brings laughter. It excites you to think about sustainability. It helps you to appreciate life.
But sadly people now just dont appreciate food.


And worst they forgot that there are still people who doesnt have food to eat.

Made like sushi!

P/s. I got a challenge by my junior to fence all of them

Teaching needs patient

Just came back from fencing and cook 2 dish of vegetable

Egg plant aka brinjal


Cabbage with Carrots

Fencing class today...same thing happened, only so few turn up.
Well.. learn to tolerate that these people might be busy cause it is near ending of semester.

But sometimes i can't really understand, althoug all is busy, why can't we spend sometime on the things that you are really passionate about? Like doing sports. It is healthy for us anyway. Is mere 2 hours of time. Perhaps it is true that different people operates different ways. Just have to respect it and try to think at their point of view.

Dissapointed? a bit. But glad that these few girls turn up. I'm really proud of them and wanted to give the best to them.

those who came are (Ah Bee most left back row, JacQi 7th back row, MeiFong 9th back row, KaiLin most right backrow and of course 'lady' coach, Captain and me the slave,Mary not in picture)

I always thought im too fierce and too impatient while teaching. Regardless fencing or piano. I think i'm very harsh at pushing my students.
Forgive me people. Am trying to learn. Be patient with me.

One more note.. there is no one that can't be thought to fence. Just need getting used to poking people and a bit of self confidence. All this can be developed.

And remember there is always a new way of counting how many lunges. Motivate yourself by the way i teach.

if there is 20 you need to do:-

1, 2, 3, 4, 5, 6, 7, 8, 9, 10 more to go, 1, 2, 3, seven to go, 6, five more to go, 4, 3, two more, 1..

it motivates yourself.
Keep on pushing forward

Abe

Student Environmental Gathering

Dr Lee speaking on the future without cars! love it!
Workshop..
Slept at 3.30am..preparing my ppt for this event... although the slides are only pictures and minimal words.. it really needs a lot of efforts to put it up. It was a great event...though the turn up is not that many..50 is really good enough. conratulations to all...thank you... Im inspired again by my own video. they are all amazing catalyst i jz love it. abe

A 'great' movie with crazy people!

When i was young, i always watched the Butterly Lover..
I treat it as a chinese 'musical'.
Some words to describe that classic movie:-

sweet, cute, evil, sinister, sad, can make u cry!

Yesterday night i had a great time going out with these bunch of juniors!
5.45pm waited at the Sg dua gate for them...jz being punctual..because that is the time we all agreed on..
wait...wait...wait...continue waiting..
no one appeared untill 6.00pm. sure la...these people kena my lecture. but the one girl..came at 6.15pm...apa lagi...lecture gao gao la..

But in the end we still reach at queensbay at 7.00 due to the poor bus system.
Took a quick lunch at mcD (again)...
straight to the movie....FAKE butterfly lover...

Movie is-----> sweating all the way (_ _,)

anyway i had a great time with these 'young gers'

abe

Retry on blogging

This is not the 1st time im blogging..
i have another blog that hasn't been updated since then..
that blog contains the true innerself of me...speaking about how i felt and my feelings.

This time is gonna be a bit different.
Is a brand new start. Writing experiences and things i see each day
HERE IT GOES!

Friday is a usual no lecture day for me. But i still woke up at 7.30am in the morning.
Went out to photocopy some notes and passed them back to my friend, Lih Fang.
IT IS THE DREADED JAPANESE Sketch script.

Then i went up to corporate office to have lunch and chat with Dr Lee.
I really love to talk to him..Never fail to learn new things each time i chat wit him...felt very comfortable talking to him. He is a great 'father' to me.

Tomorrow will be environmental conference for students. Haven't started preparing my slides for presentation. Want to do it but so lazy to start. I have it all conceptualized already in my mind...time to put it into ppt form... help me! (>_<)

have to get to my presentation...ill come back to u ppl soon!